Knowing Me (July 11, 2019)

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I cling
knowing it’s not healthy 
knowing it’s not who I am
but knowing it’s because I’m afraid
I search
hoping to find my identity 
one I will finally like
one that fulfills my emptiness
I dream
of being someone else
someone who isn’t average
someone who truly matters
I cry
knowing I will never live up
knowing I will never impress
but knowing I will kill myself trying

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