The Untold Story (September 25, 2019)

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the words never last 
they flow in and out of my 
head
swarming around me
but disappearing as soon as I 
need them
I run for paper
the sentences already forming in my 
mind 
dancing together in perfect
harmony
then                 nothing
they go as quickly as they 
come
wandering through my 
veins 
leaving impressions but 
never footprints 
fragmented thoughts
unfinished ideas
fleeting concepts 
and blank pages
the greatest story that was
never told

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