Memories of Me (January 2, 2019)

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Memories stream from all directions filling my mind
Waiting to be sorted
Waiting to be remembered as I scan through them
Grasping for one that looks like me
More than the me in the mirror

I no longer recognize her
Her confusion
Her sadness
Her pain
She is not the me from my memories
I try to piece it together
Where she came from
When she changed
How it got this bad
But those aren’t the memories I kept
I pushed them down
Hid them
Forgot them
Escaped them
I blurred the gap
between happiness
and darkness
But sometimes life slows down
and I look in the mirror
Tears streaming
No idea how I got here
What happened to that girl
The one in my memories

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