I Knew You (November 4, 2019)

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I know you
I swear I’ve seen you before
you’re the girl with the crooked smile that flutters through the room
where is it now?
You’re the one who can’t hold back her
laughter, but no one complains
but I can’t hear it now
Yes, the one who bounces from place to place,
filling everyone with delight
why are you sitting?
I couldn’t recognize you
not by your clouded eyes that are holding back so much pain
not by your crumpled face, void of all feeling
no, not by your drained figure that is dragging,
lifeless 
what happened to you?
what happened to that girl?
did someone take the light from your eyes?
or did you finally
give up?

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