Loves Me Loves Me Not (September 6, 2019)

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Nothing that beautiful
Can last forever
and that is why you let me go
you stole the flower
and tore off the petals
loves me
loves me not
until there was nothing left
abandoned 
alone 
you walked away
leaving me in pieces
loves me 
not

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